This was the first day we decided to start a cult. Not a religious cult. Not a serious cult. Just an outlet we could use for therapeutic reasons. We were at a party for New Year’s and I remember sitting at a table with a candle on it. The rest of the people were somewhere else in the house. At the table, was me and my two future band members. We all stared at the candle and eventually concluded we should start making music together.
The three of us shared a common bond: two of us had just lost our fathers, the other had never known who his father was. There was a big void in our lives. There wasn’t a lot of kids around us that knew that feeling, or we’re open enough to express the way they felt.
That’s about as much I as I can remember from the very, very beginning. We starting making music almost immediately. At the time, I didn’t think of it as therapy. I didn’t think of it as anything other than trying to create something meaningful. Something that would make the tragedy of losing a parent worth the pain.
Making music as “Salacious Wizard Cult” was never meant to be serious. We just wanted to have fun. The name of the band gave us a lot of space to be imaginative. My mind tends to try to connect the real world to magic and cults. These are the most interesting concepts for me. I think one of the most important ways to deal with depression or any other illness is to give yourself a space to be creative and fantastical.
These traumatic events that happened to us were transformed into stories about cults and magic. We trying to turn “death” into a person we could communicate through music. It was the most powerful outlet I could find. To take an idea, or fear, or words I wish I could say, record them and get to hear them outside of myself, was the I found an identity.
I’m going to start uploading all the songs we made from 2011 to today on this site and tell the story behind it. Some of the songs are terrible, I had no sense of technical production of audio. But the feeling of the time is there. It’s like a time capsule.
“White Van” was the first album we made, recorded in January 2011 to May 2011. It might not be a “good” album, but the fact that we actually started something and finished it helped me a lot in life. Realizing that even with a mental illness, we could create something to give to the world. This all sounds very preachy but I’m going to do my best to give insight into my creative process for anyone who is interested.
Thanks for reading, I’ll upload the first song we made tomorrow.